Last night I probably did 1000 stupid things I shouldn't have. I threw tact out the window and was reckless with just about all of my emotions that i've been doing really good to control lately. I spoke candidly at the bar about my love life and drank copious amounts of vodka and wine. I ate like a a barrel chested glutton and bedded a beautiful woman. I don't regret anything except the stupid text messages I sent to my ex.
After running into my mom gossiping with w/ my ex and seeing my ex for the first time in a month I figured she would text me. in my head it's a girl logic thing but it's not its just guy logic see her text her. I can't believe I haven't seen or talked to her in a month and it still bugs me this much. So I sent 2 rude texts calling her callous and self-centered and could kick myself for it because I just couldn't let go. As far as things go this girl is wrong for me and I had very good reasons for breaking things off but I'll be damned if I'm not still tied into it and I don't know why...
If that wasn't enough I hung out with a different ex who stayed over. To her, I'm the one that got away. I liked dating her, she's a great girl but I just won't have those feelings for her and in the end I broke things off because I knew I wasn't going to have 'em.
guy logic-- sex will get me to stop thinking about the girl I have all the feelings for. How does that make sense? It doesn't but it did at the time. So now I've bedded to beautiful women and am no closer to being over than my ex than had I taken a tylenol PM and gone to bed. Who knew.
Next time I get this wild hair to be a retarded hedonistic man-child I'm gonna take up something healthy like cage fighting.
it's insane that I can be so good at handling situations w/ women and life and doling out advice like a rock star shrink to all the unwitting friends that think I know what I'm talking about but at the end of the day the girl that treated me the worst is the one I still have the feelings for. WTF.
I am an idiot man-child and I need a lobotomy.
After running into my mom gossiping with w/ my ex and seeing my ex for the first time in a month I figured she would text me. in my head it's a girl logic thing but it's not its just guy logic see her text her. I can't believe I haven't seen or talked to her in a month and it still bugs me this much. So I sent 2 rude texts calling her callous and self-centered and could kick myself for it because I just couldn't let go. As far as things go this girl is wrong for me and I had very good reasons for breaking things off but I'll be damned if I'm not still tied into it and I don't know why...
If that wasn't enough I hung out with a different ex who stayed over. To her, I'm the one that got away. I liked dating her, she's a great girl but I just won't have those feelings for her and in the end I broke things off because I knew I wasn't going to have 'em.
guy logic-- sex will get me to stop thinking about the girl I have all the feelings for. How does that make sense? It doesn't but it did at the time. So now I've bedded to beautiful women and am no closer to being over than my ex than had I taken a tylenol PM and gone to bed. Who knew.
Next time I get this wild hair to be a retarded hedonistic man-child I'm gonna take up something healthy like cage fighting.
it's insane that I can be so good at handling situations w/ women and life and doling out advice like a rock star shrink to all the unwitting friends that think I know what I'm talking about but at the end of the day the girl that treated me the worst is the one I still have the feelings for. WTF.
I am an idiot man-child and I need a lobotomy.
